Craving
July 5, 2025
I've been craving some kind of meida to learn about something cool. Remember the genre from the 2000s of the historian or police officer that was part of an organization that dealt with mythical beings or found a long lost secret (think Grimm, The Librarian, National Treasure, etc)? I want to find something that hits the spot in the same way that those programs did when I was younger. They always introduced you to some part of history that was really interesting and I would go onto the shared computer in the living room and spend the next hour in this rabbit hole of information about that topic. I want to find something to match that.
Personality Test
September 24, 2024
I took the 16 personalities test today and got INTJ-A. I feel like this aligns well with who I am. I feel like most people assume I'm an extrovert because I am not shy nor do I have a hard time talking to people. I think I'm an introvert because I don't enjoy talking to people and would prefer to spend my time alone rather than with others. I think the only category that I can swing is the judging versus prospecting. I think the reason I got judging is because of the questions that asked me if I like lists. I like lists but not necessarily to stay organized but more so make the jumble in my head less. I rarely look back at the lists I make but rather make them to think clearer. I honestly like who I am as a person and feel confident in my strengths and weaknesses so it's fun to be put as a character I relate to. Here are my results:

Boredom
September 23, 2024
Being bored is something that most people stay away from. Some think being bored is essential. However, I find myself bored and in a state where I find comfort in this boredom. Which I think is not a good thing as it feels like I'm rotting away. I remember reading somewhere that suggested boredom leads to creativity but I haven't had that experience. When I am bored, my brain turns off and it feels like I have no thoughts. I may be doing "boredom" wrong, though. My boredom includes watching the weather channel or scrolling though social media. But maybe the boredom I need is not as stimulating. Maybe I need to sit on my bed and stare at the wall in front of me for an hour to really feel bored as it's meant to be, rather tnan bored because of a boring activity. Will try it out some time and report back on this hypothesis.